A Sincerest Apology

My dad made me mad and I said something a bit graphic.  It was totally deplorable, but he had just yelled at me or something..  It seems worse now.  I really like this person, too, I dunno I have schizophrenia.  I think that's what it is.  I imagined myself in place in begging for forgiveness.  Bad thing is people could find out.  So, imagine me dying like that.  Punish as you will.  I was feeling outta it and did not really mean it.  I dunno why I thought and said that.  Oh, yea, it reminded me of my pizza, and then I said it later.  And of course I didn't think of it like really happening.  :(  I'm very sad now.