A Bit Mellowed

Sorry I was so strict about what I think Ellen's mom thinks of her, but Ellen does not listen and wants to be mean to people like me.  She expressed this on the show, not trying to make up stories about her with this.

What Made Me Do It

I thought it was just like thinking of a cartoon.  My dad said to make it into 1.

A Sincerest Apology

My dad made me mad and I said something a bit graphic.  It was totally deplorable, but he had just yelled at me or something..  It seems worse now.  I really like this person, too, I dunno I have schizophrenia.  I think that's what it is.  I imagined myself in place in begging for forgiveness.  Bad thing is people could find out.  So, imagine me dying like that.  Punish as you will.  I was feeling outta it and did not really mean it.  I dunno why I thought and said that.  Oh, yea, it reminded me of my pizza, and then I said it later.  And of course I didn't think of it like really happening.  :(  I'm very sad now.